Who’s turn is it today?
Will it be,
The ambrosial lover, or the mad cynic?
The unforgiving critic, or the loyal advocate?
The curious child, or the unimaginative adult?
A different mask a different day.
Take it off and what are you?
A reflective vessel of scars and hopes.
This ones for all the poets out there!
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– The Obsessive Writer
Would you think I was crazy
If I said the dark gave me peace?
There are no blaring lights,
In these calming nights.
No one can really see,
The dark offers a lot of privacy.
To just be, to exist.
Live a life unnoticed.
What goes unnoticed, remains untouched.
I’d like to be that unbruised flower.
The one you water every day in your garden of dreams.
For when the morning comes,
So does all the hate.
I am more than how the light falls on me.
I am more than what they see.
They teach us to beware of the monsters under our bed.
Whilst they hide in plain sight, all the demons in their head.
Is there such a thing?
I’ve always been taught by life and it’s experiences that nothing is ever black or white. Our moral compass if often dunked in shades of grey and we’re left stranded with no sense of direction. I did not think there was a rule book. But lately, it feels like there are indeed some strong indicators that guide us unintentionally.
Whenever I am faced with a difficult choice, there are often two options. One that feels like it might suck immensely, and an easier one. I hate confrontation, or any sorts of negativity so I’ve always ended up picking the easier thing to do. Like not leaving my hometown for college, not ending a bad friendship, just not taking risks.
Maybe the right way doesn’t feel so right? Maybe its when you’ve got that pit in your stomach you’re doing what you’re supposed to. I have reached this point in my life where I feel like nothing can go wrong. Every high or low is just the path I was meant to take to my rightful destination. The only way I’m going to end up where I am supposed to is by doing things the right way no matter the consequences and irrespective of how hard they are.
Seeing as I’ve only got this one life, I might as well get it right.
– The Obsessive Writer
For a single drop of tear,
For a second of regret,
For some compassion
In your unforgiving eyes.
As you tore apart my wings.
For a morsel of kindness,
For a minute of sympathy,
For mere reluctance
In your cold, dead heart.
As you shot your poison dart.
Some people cannot be saved.
And some people cannot be loved.
We have all fallen victim to, and indulged in the delivery of some cheesy lines. We do this sort of thing. Make promises of forever. It’s not much of an exaggeration as it something we say in the heat of the moment. But when push comes to shove, what would you really do for your loved one? How far would you go?
Most of these promises we make, are about situations we’d most likely not encounter in daily life. I’m not a soldier, I don’t think I’ll ever have to take a bullet for anyone. I don’t think I’ll be scaling mountains for anyone any time soon, seeing as I’m not an avid trekker.
When I think about all the things I’d do for love, I guess the first and foremost thing would be to make real promises, about real things, you’d do for them in – yes you guessed it! -REAL situations.
I promise to be there for every little thing, because when it’s you, nothing is little. I promise to put your feelings above mine when we fight, because you matter more. I promise to shower you with love, whenever you’re sad so that you always have a reason to smile. Life will be hard. There’s no denying that. But, I promise to stay by you no matter how hard it gets.
It’s very easy to let life bring you down. In my case I made my whole life about someone and all my happiness and sadness was no longer in my control. It’s easy to blame relationships or yourself and mope around. I’ve done that. I haven’t been able to write, well I could write but it would just be depressing shit so I haven’t. It took me a while to see clearly. It did not come to me suddenly. It was no miraculous epiphany. When you feel broken inside and you think you’ll never get out of this spell life has cast on you, gradually your vision clears up. Like fog lifting at day break.
Whether you’re have an amazing day or not, I’d like to remind you that scientifically there is a very huge possibility that this is the one chance you get at life. Are you really willing to waste it all over someone or something? I’ve realised that I’m not. Make your own happiness. And the first step to that is listing reasons why you should be happy. Count your blessings along with me in the comments if you’d like to. Here goes,
- I have a gorgeous, amazing, loving and extremely huggable little pup who’s just waiting for me to get out of bed every morning.
- I have the most amazing father who happens to be more than a father. He is my best friend.
- I have a blog and people, nice people. You have no idea how nice! These people visit me every day and make my life a thousand times better with their kind words. They make me feel like a writer and I am forever grateful. 🙂
- I am learning to drive and I’m kicking ass at it.
- Most importantly, thank God for Netflix. It’s like I have a thousand families and friends every day when I tune in to watch my favourite shows.
This was just a post I needed to write for myself, more than for others. But I hope it helps you in a way too. Thank you for reading. Don’t forget to smile today. It literally costs nothing! 🙂
– The Obsessive Writer