Him.

Words are all I had and he took them from me. It drove me insane, not knowing what to say; to just stare in awe and adoration. All of a sudden there was something I loved more than myself.

Him.

His smile.

His eyes.

His warmth.

Him.

I remember it all. How he looked into my eyes, like we were the only people in the world; the sound of his voice…his laugh. It’s the kinda laugh that reminds you of the good things in life. He didn’t just give my heart wings, he made me want to fly. Flying is not so scary when I know I’ve got him to catch me when I fall. 

© Abirami

Keepin it Real!

“Be nice”, they said. “Always be nice.” As important as it is to say nice things often, it’s also necessary that you remember to say things only when you mean them. I learned it the hard way. But, I guess, the hard way is always the appropriate way. Your little, harmless exaggerations could very well make someone’s day. Put a nice smile on their face. Making people smile… isn’t that nice? That satisfaction. Man. Just awesome. Gets you real high. But those things you say, start losing their value. If you go around telling everybody you meet that you love them, then when the time comes when you actually feel like you really; just really LOVE them; that phrase won’t mean a thing. You’d have to invent a whole new phrase to show them what you mean, and that’s a total drag. You don’t have to be an I-love-you-prude. Just say it when you mean it.

It’s the same case with letting people into your mind. When you’re the kind of person who tells just about anyone your deepest secrets, then it doesn’t matter who you confide in. Save the good stuff for the right people. I’m sure you all have them. Those right people. 

If you’d do anything for anyone, then what sets apart your people from everyone else? Yeah, sure, you’d know. But who cares what you know? Unless there comes a day when you can feed your thoughts into a computer and actually show it to those people, you have no definitive way of letting them know what they mean to you.

Certain things in life make sense only when you’re going through it yourself. To me, this is one of those things. And when you talk about these things you can’t really be sure you’re making sense. Yes, it’s kind of a bummer. So, I’m just going to go with my gut. Have a good day everybody. And hopefully you’re keepin it real! 🙂

The people, My people.

The sweet sweet feeling of endless exams finally coming to an end. MAN! that lasted about two seconds. Yeah, I know. Nothing pleases me! I’ll never learn. Anyway, Well, I’ve gotten my ritualistic unrelated introductory session over with. How are you all doing? It’s been a while since I connected with the fellow bloggers out here. I’ve seen some amazing people here over the days and quite frankly I miss them. I’m sure you understand what this must feel like. We all have so many people in our lives each with a different role. One extremely important role in the life of a writer (if I can call myself that) is that of a fellow blogger. The refreshing anonymity and common ground we share makes this so special. I have been truly inspired by so many people whom I’ve not even met in reality. So yes, this is a shout out to all the amazing people out there. I would love for you to share your philosophies of life or simply what’s going on if you would like to spare me the time. 🙂 Keep writing, inspiring. I would be dysfunctional without you guys! 😀

Love, The Obsessive Writer.

Addicted.

We are all slaves of our conscience and desires – The two primary things that have their influence over our lives. Our emotions for instance: anger, sorrow, lust, love we just can’t suppress them no matter how hard we try. Another serious factor that has complete and absolute control over us would be our addictions.

What are these addictions you ask?
Well yes, drugs are the easiest to get addicted to. That is more health oriented than I’d like for this post and It is mostly because of several other things in life that pushes one towards it.
This post is more about the more deadly, subtle addictions that sometimes we’re not even aware of. Leave alcoholism, anorexia, OCDs, plastic surgery addictions and other health oriented stuff out of your mind as you continue reading.

Let’s start simple.

An overachiever is addicted success cannot go through a tiny piece of failure and come out of it alive. I’d know. An invalid who is always excused and given special rights cannot survive in a world where he is treated an equal. An influential man can never stand in line. He simply doesn’t even know the way of life of the lesser mortals. A beautiful girl can never go without satisfactory attention in public. A successful person thrives on compliments. This list goes on and on and on so I think it is safe to assume that we are in a way addicted to our lifestyles. Maybe that is because we know only our life and learning to live differently might be hard but you have to admit that there is some compulsive obsession to have things going on the same way at those times when things fall slightly out of track.

These addictions are the little things. The less harmful ones. What you should watch out for, are the people. Every single one of us with or without a social life has this one person we just can’t go without. They may change from time to time. But they’re there! It depends on our individual luck if or not they’re good for us. Regardless. There is someone and they’re probably on your mind right now.

If they actually care about you and consider you to be something in their lives, then good! The sad part is, even if they don’t, we just can’t let go. Our minds are always smarter than our hearts, smart enough to fool it and at times we take advantage of that. Even when you know, so clearly that they’re not good for you, they don’t even care! You hold on to the good things that they do and convince yourself that it’s enough. THIS is the worst kind of addiction there is! And you just have to let go.

I know it’s hard. What you don’t realize is that it’s not really you fearing losing them, it’s you not wanting to be alone. You wanting the relationship. Because you’ve convinced yourself that you need it. Think for a minute. Just one. There was no relationship in the first place! The only person in it was YOU! Playing both roles. So it doesn’t really matter if they’re there or not! You can satisfy yourself regardless. At least you can save yourself some self-respect.

Choose the right people, the one’s who deserve you. It’s okay to fixate but invest yourself in the right people. I know I have. What about you?